He Loved Her enough. . .

This morning as I was taking a shower, I had a thought (why is it most good thoughts come while you're in the bathroom?).   I was thinking on how Jesus willingly gave up His life and came to this earth so that we may have life in Him.  I was also thinking about how much it must have pained both Jesus and the Father to have to send Him here just for Him to lay down His life.  God knew all the pain that His Son would face.  And He knew that in the end He (the Father) would have to turn His face away from His Son.  They would be separated for the first time ever.  I already know that God loves us more than we could possibly imagine.
Through this pain with Jubilee, I've never really blamed God.  I've struggled with why He didn't let us keep her here on this earth and being hurt and missing her, but I've never blamed Him.  I'm so thankful that even as we were driving to the hospital that terrible Wednesday, He filled me with His Peace which truly does surpass all understanding.  What I hadn't thought about was my revelation this morning:

God loved her enough to send her into this life, albeit for a short while, so that she could spend eternity with Him. 

Mind blown!  He loved her that much!!! I know that He will love her better than I ever could (and I love her a whole lot).  He chose me to be her mama.  The one to help her to know what a heartbeat sounds like, the one to sing to her and read to her.  He chose Zoe to be her sister to give her kisses and hug her and snuggle her.  And He chose Aaron to be her loving father who would talk to her in his silly voice, ask her if she's baking up right and spend time knocking on the door to her room (aka my belly).  

There is still so much pain that comes with having this experience (and I've been feeling it this week).  But I wouldn't trade it in the world because through this, Jubilee gets to spend eternity with Jesus.  WHAT A THOUGHT!  

However, if you'd pray for me I'd appreciate it.  I'm very much still struggling with not being pregnant yet and missing my precious girl. Some days are better than others but when my wonderful friend FLO comes around she makes things so much harder for me.  

Exploring Creativity

I've spent some time playing in photoshop the last few days.  Here are some of the things I've come up with:

I am so enjoying being an image bearer in this way.  

If you have any suggestions of things to create please let me know. 

SNOW much FUN

On Sunday, it was finally snowy and not BITTERLY cold.  So what else should we do but bundle up and play in the snow for about 15 minutes with Zoe.  This is her first real experience playing in the snow and she just LOVED it.  We had a lot of fun capturing these memories.  Hope you like them too :)

and those terribly flushed cheeks are why we came inside after 15 minutes lol :) 

She's also decided she'd like to try riding her tricycle again.  She falls off ALL.THE.TIME.  However she usually gets up with a smile and tries again. I just love her!

Zoe is 2 (A photo post)

Zoe turned two at the end of January.  She has been growing in leaps and bounds.  She insists on sitting at the big people table.  NO MORE HIGHCHAIR THANK YOU VERY MUCH.  Thankfully today I remembered to put her booster seat on the chair and this helped a lot. She is learning possession as well, "my drink", "mommy's pen", "daddy's keys."  It's darling.  Today she also said a full sentence, "Dada, want some" in reference to the black olives. The boys enjoy seeing her language grow. She's so much fun.

We had two small birthday parties for her and she is a girl after my own heart (as if she doesn't own it already). She loves books and tractors and bling.  It's great!

The last 5 were taking by my Mom-in-Love.  She does a great job! All the rest except one were taken by me.  We just think Zoe's a great subject.